I been in that war, but I ain't say it

My dog just finished trial and lost the case

Couple days before I was a pallbearer and buried Jay

I ain't walk up on his casket when it's open

I ain't want that to be the last time I seen his face

When I seen my tear fall

I ain't cry in a while, but I seen blood

And it's feelin' deep, we ain't lose connect

so we ain't talk, but that's my thug

I felt his soul when I was huggin' her tight

when I gave his mama a hug

I'm still mad, tryna rekindle our flame

but you know it's still love

I'm tryin', but it's only so much that a nigga can take

Inside, I'm dyin', every day feel like my last

in the morning, I won't be awake

With all my love, been tryna make this mountain move

Uh, I still be trying even though I know it's impossible

How could I be so foolish for believing in love?

Know it's limited moments I got with you

and this time ain't enough

YB just lost federal trial, it got my head spinnin'

Grandma asked me, was I at peace?

I told her, "It's been a minute"

They say I beat the streets

but I promise it don't seem like I'm winning

God keep a close eye on me

you know how I get when I'm healin'

Know how I get when I'm dealin'

Suicidal thoughts, I be trippin'

I been out of touch with my feelings

Emotionally scarred, but I'm willin'

They say I'm weird 'cause I'm different

I still won't change with these millions

I cry of pain 'cause I feel it

They ain't say bad news, but I hear it

I'm tryin', but it's only so much that a nigga can take

Inside, I'm dyin', every day feel like my last

in the morning, I won't be awake

Ayy, I be tryna move my feet, but my heart just got me stuck

When I started to see that they cared

that's when they showed me they don't give a fuck

When I love, my heart start beating, I can't let you in easy

Why should I be the one to stay

when I know you gon' leave me?

Mortician wanted me to talk at Jay funeral

But I was tryna stay strong even though I was vulnerable

I had 23 once before, but I lost him two times

We wasn't on good terms before he died

I wished I called his line

The shit that we was fighting over, we could've got over it

Had our differences since 2019, but nobody noticed it

I still loved you like my brother, I hope you know it

Embracin' all my feelings like a poet

I just seen the devil flash right 'cross my eyes

In my dreams, I seen a shovel bury me alive

All your friends and, yeah, all my brothers died

Baby, I need you here, just right here by my side

Feel like bad luck is me, feel like I'm cursed

I know everybody go through shit, but I go through the worst

Hurt people hurt people, I lied when I said I believe him

I wouldn't be surprised if out of the blue

that my heart'll stop beating

I showed 'em my weakness

I'm tryin', but it's only so much that a nigga can take

Inside, I'm dyin', every day feel like my last

in the morning, I won't be awake

You know, like, real niggas go through shit, you feel me?

I won't try to hide it 'cause I know this shit be real

you feel what I'm sayin'?

I can't hide this shit

this shit just be me, that's who I am, like

I feel this shit, you know what I'm sayin'?

Like, every step of the way, it's always somethin' else

Every time I open my eyes, it's somethin'

I close 'em, it's somethin' else

I wake up, open again, it's somethin' else

That's just my life