Now I'm on my own
But I can't say that it's been better since you've gone
Wrote a letter apologizing 'bout how wrong
I was to you, I was to you
(Now I'm on my own)

I don't know how to behave
Been writing out the way I feel, soon I'll fill up this page
Last night I drank some whiskey tryna fill up the space
It still burns, just like looking at those pictures we saved
From trips to Mexico, know your body head to toe
Everything I did, you always put up on a pedestal
Late-night conversations 'bout our dreams
and the future that we'd share
What our kids would look like, I guess we'll never know
This all got me messed up, ovеrcomplicated
You said that this all too much, I overcompensatеd
I guess I got scared from the baggage in my past
And then blamed you for my problems
that I understand were not related
I became an asshole, you onto better things
Wish I could call and say I'm sorry, but you let it ring
Sometimes don't wanna hear your side 'cause I bet it sting
So I just close my eyes and lay down in my bed and sing

Now I'm on my own
But I can't say that it's been better
since you've gone (Since you've gone)
Wrote a letter apologizing 'bout how wrong
I was to you, I was to you
(Now I'm on my own)

It's like, I keep wondering if I've been too hard
See, it's not just you that's stuck with this broken heart
And yeah, you had some baggage in your past
And I hate that we struggled
communicating right from the start
But, I had some baggage too
I guess I hid it, never truly opened up to you
Always expecting perfection, I had your spirit broke
The more you hurt, the more the space between us only grew
I'm such a hypocrite, miss our conversations
How'd I let a little space become a separation?
Not saying I forgive you, but I'm having realizations
Maybe some of this blame could be pointed back at me
I can barely even sleep, I seen you calling
By the time I wiped my tears and picked up, started talking
You already hung up, damn, look at what I'm causing
Threw my phone and closed my eyes
the silence just feels calming

Now I'm on my own
But I can't say that it's been better since you've gone
Wrote a letter apologizing 'bout how wrong
I was to you, I was to you