Now I'm on my own

But I can't say that it's been better since you've gone

Wrote a letter apologizing 'bout how wrong

I was to you, I was to you

(Now I'm on my own)

I don't know how to behave

Been writing out the way I feel, soon I'll fill up this page

Last night I drank some whiskey tryna fill up the space

It still burns, just like looking at those pictures we saved

From trips to Mexico, know your body head to toe

Everything I did, you always put up on a pedestal

Late-night conversations 'bout our dreams

and the future that we'd share

What our kids would look like, I guess we'll never know

This all got me messed up, ovеrcomplicated

You said that this all too much, I overcompensatеd

I guess I got scared from the baggage in my past

And then blamed you for my problems

that I understand were not related

I became an asshole, you onto better things

Wish I could call and say I'm sorry, but you let it ring

Sometimes don't wanna hear your side 'cause I bet it sting

So I just close my eyes and lay down in my bed and sing

Now I'm on my own

But I can't say that it's been better

since you've gone (Since you've gone)

Wrote a letter apologizing 'bout how wrong

I was to you, I was to you

(Now I'm on my own)

It's like, I keep wondering if I've been too hard

See, it's not just you that's stuck with this broken heart

And yeah, you had some baggage in your past

And I hate that we struggled

communicating right from the start

But, I had some baggage too

I guess I hid it, never truly opened up to you

Always expecting perfection, I had your spirit broke

The more you hurt, the more the space between us only grew

I'm such a hypocrite, miss our conversations

How'd I let a little space become a separation?

Not saying I forgive you, but I'm having realizations

Maybe some of this blame could be pointed back at me

I can barely even sleep, I seen you calling

By the time I wiped my tears and picked up, started talking

You already hung up, damn, look at what I'm causing

Threw my phone and closed my eyes

the silence just feels calming

Now I'm on my own

But I can't say that it's been better since you've gone

Wrote a letter apologizing 'bout how wrong

I was to you, I was to you