I'm trying my best

But inside, it's like I'm dead

My mind don't go to rest, yeah

No, my mind don't go to rest

I know what's right, I still go left

I'm just tryna find some sense

I'm just tryna find what's true

I'm just tryna find myself again

I'm just tryna find myself again

I'm just tryna find myself again

I'm just tryna find myself again

In that zone

Everyone around, I still feel neglected

Everyone sweet and sound, somehow still feel disrespected

Is it the weed, or drink, or one of the tings I messed with?

Is it the house, the room, or is it the bed I slept in?

It could be with all of the people I know

I don't have a best friend

All of this money and I'm still alone

nobody could settle in

I should've been sending the money

back home but I'm in the West End

Lil' bro got beef in the post code, I'm still investin'

The politics taking a toll, they want me on left wing

They want me back on Barking Road like it's 2010

It's like they want me back on drugs

they said that's the best him

'Cause when I went sober for two years

the fans stopped listenin'

They used to love me when I was high, but that was my lowest

They used to love me when I was

broke till I broke my promise

And she used to love me, but it's fading, and it's showing

I could feel it coming, I could see her going

Feel like I'm dying 'cause this love kills slowly

You can grind for life, you're only defined by your moments

I'm trying my best

That's why I'm turning the page

I put down the gauge and rock out the stage

In the trap, I must've been a racist

Cuttin' the darkness, shottin' the beige

My heart is still in the hood

That's why I don't feel like I came a long way

A part of me want to fall in love

But these women all play the same game

Too much pride, I can't even talk to God

I don't want to feel like I'm complaining

I'm so tired of grinding

but my people gon' starve if I go to the grave

If I rewind it back

there may be a few things I would change

But that time, it ain't coming back

So I resume into the pain

I'm trying my best

But inside, it's like I'm dead

My mind don't go to rest, yeah

No, my mind don't go to rest

I know what's right, I still go left

I'm just tryna find some sense

I'm just tryna find what's true

I'm just tryna find myself again

I'm just tryna find myself again

I'm just tryna find myself again

I'm just tryna find myself again

I'm trying my best

I'm trying my best

I'm trying my best

I'm trying my best

I'm trying my best

I'm trying my best