Jump in the water like it don't matter, I'm scared of sharks
I'll buy your paint and hang it and frame it, I hate the art
Don't lose my head when you just forget and leave me on read
I was done drinking, you said tequila, I'll buy the shots

So what does it mean? Keeps getting sadder
Was it sixteen that made me not matter?
Was it Logan or Robbie? It's your captain named Carly
That made the cut deeper and messed up my body
I'll keep being sweeter, but at my demise
Call me people pleaser and damn if they're right
Damn if they're right

Turned up the banjo, got my hair blonder, I got the ad
Split up the moments, Grammys as moms and CMA's dead
Don't lose my mind when wrong is alright
Just won't sleep at night
Internalized Internet lies, no, really it isn't so bad

What does it mean plumbing the ladder?
Was it this dream that made me not matter?
Was it drinking at parties or not getting sorries?
Wrong ring on my finger or cosplaying Barbie?
That made me so eager with a smile in my eye
Call me people pleaser and damn if they're right
Damn if they're right

Now I just wanna scream
But that would be dramatic of me
Right now I just wanna leave
But I guess that I'll stay, he likes me today

So what does it mean, crying at red night?
I just can't seem to cut out the cheddar
I'll keep being sweeter 'cause that's what they like
She's skinny so feed her and I'll take a bite
A selfish man eater, you're wrong but alright
Fuck, who am I? Damn it they're right