I'm contemplating, reflecting on my life
I'm pondering my options and listening to advice
Considering the price I've paid, observing what I've done
I'm weighing all the pros and cons
the things I've lost and won
The race I've run, the pace I've had
the choices that I've made
The path that I've been treading on it isn't always paved
I'm well behaved, I'm not depraved, I'm reasonably sane
But the burdens that I carry are a hеavy ball and chain

All of problems I face
Every scar lеaves a trace
For all the faults I create
I have to carry the weight

I'm meditating, rejecting all my strife
I'm focusing on positives, reducing sacrifice
The only paradise we have is what we all become
A piece of mine for peace of mind
we're sharing all the crumbs
Everyone and anyone deserves a big upgrade
The wrath we've all experienced has mostly been man made
We've been betrayed, we've been portrayed as mentally insane
And misery loves company, prepare to share the pain

All of problems I face
Every scar leaves a trace
For all the faults I create
I have to carry the weight
All of problems I face
Every scar leaves a trace
For all the faults I create
I have to carry the weight

I'm hesitating, I'm sceptical at best
Sometimes it feels like I'm clinically depressed
Put to the test, I must confess that I'm no good with pain
Am I insane to that I could go against the grain?
Can I maintain my sanity outside my comfort zone?
I'm hesitant of whether I can walk the line alone
Am I a clone or skin and bone, what's my given name?
Do I exist, is all this a stupid fucking game?