My eyes open to a crepuscular vision

Fluorescent lights invade my unsuspecting eyes

It feels as if I haven't moved in weeks

My muscles ache, and they burn

as I try to stand up on my own two feet

Can someone tell me how I got here?

This room is nice and all but I feel like you made a mistake

I had a plan, I had my reasons

But whatever your intentions are

I swear they're not worth it

You must see my life as valuable but you

failed to flip the price tag and see just

how expensive it is to keep all this baggage

This hate and self loathing that's

been tearing at me for all these years

As I stand nice and tall I put on a show of

balance to show this doesn't come so easy anymore

Whoever's watching I hope you're entertained

as I lose my mind in this room

that feels like my personal prison

I feel as though I'm being judged even

though I know there's no eyes on me anymore

Self contained thoughts delay my own thinking

I know I was wrong and regret everything

I need to get to the door and see who can help me

so that I know that I'm not alone

One twist of the knob, to freedom I come

Yet all I hear is a click

And it's locked