Bother me

All of these thoughts enter in

My amity, faltered and rusted with chains

I'm far from okay

I just deteriorate into these lies

I've tried convincing my mind I'm all right

But the time healed nothing like

I was foretold it would mend me inside

Guess I'll writhe in my shell

I'll take the first hearse straight to hell

Don't you cry when the bell rings at the cemetery funeral

You'll be fine, I know

Don't think of me when things are low

I deserve fire and brimstone

As my casket and for my throne

Harrowing

Distressed, it seeks for the veins

From under flesh, this awaits me

To break from pain with a blade to my wrists

On my grave, I hope you piss upon the memory you received

And don't you wish for me to be at ease or in peace

Destructive tendencies delivered me to this place

A flood of entropy to permeate through my brain

and I just take it

I let decadence have the say

Carrying me to waste

They bother me

All of these thoughts enter in

I can sense a coming and enclosing on me

Seducing of noose lustfully caught my eye with a gaze

I contemplate sealing fate

This depression is severing all my aspiration

To attain a life of happiness

And leave without the shame

that burdens me with lack of confidence

And hatred, I disdain the way the

pain plays such a part of this

Deterring me a way to carry on